40 BY 40

I'm turning 40 ...there, I said it! Truth is whether I say it out loud or not - it's happening, if life is spared as old people in Jamaica would say! Don't want to be presumptuous they say.

It's happening! So I might as well embrace it with a smile- I wasn't exactly looking forward to turning 40..it's like- you're officially old! If I say it out loud, I clue in all those who thought I was in my mid- thirties. I can no longer hide behind a 'youthful appearance.' Forty is grown folks business!

But..I'm not where I want to be; I'm not where I thought I should be; and at times it keeps me looking back...

And looking back..while in your present, can only give you tunnel vision and neck pain!

I'm therefore charting a beginning! beginnings are the best places to start - a new thing!

SO 40 by 40 has been swirling around in my head for a minute and I'm just going to blurt it out...cause usually, my mind is where ideas are born and usually the place where those same ideas..go to die!

40 lbs. by my 40th birthday in July- that's it! Yes, I have 40 lbs. to spare, infact..I have more but 40 by 40 it is. So..why put it on this space?

I considered putting it on another blog, but for me it wasn't practical, I don't have the time to manage two blogs with my life. This is a journey I have been on before with success this year but I seem to fall back into old habits and if it is the desire of my heart to shed excess weight- then it must be that I can rely on a Lord that promises me that he will grant those desires. If he indeed knows how many hairs are on my head...then he knows how many pounds are on my scale! My best, healthiest life must also be a concern for my God also.

What this isn't : - 
1. A call for anyone to hate themselves or their bodies
2. This is not an attack on the body positive movement
3. It is not a push on the so called 'biblical diet'
4. This is not a contest or competition

What it is:-
Just me, growing and giving myself a healthy gift for my milestone birthday.

I invite anyone who wants to join me to do so via this medium. I welcome it, friends always make journeys better!

Send me:
  1.  your stories
  2. your pictures
  3. your eating plans
  4. your exercise routines
  5. your hopes
  6. your fears
  7. your success stories
  8. your encouragement

Drop me a line at : williamsstand@gmail.com and then with your permission,I will post up your stories on my 40 by 40 page. Or...you can use the contact form here...

I hope this becomes a space where we can, together, women and men - encourage each other as we move closer to our best selves.

I start in January, 2016! Hope to see you there!

I haven't started
That 40 by 40..thing

Are the promises made to self the easiest to break?

I glanced over an interesting facebook re-post today about a young man who was on a spiritual journey and a physical battle; that battle of the bulge! He linked the two. He said the more spiritually sound he got, the easier it was for him to recognize that his craving for food was related to a fight from the enemy and one of those seven deadly sins - gluttony!

I went to a Catholic primary school, they separated the Catholic and Episcopal children at lunchtime and for a few minutes, they taught us Catholic things! I was one of those children. We were mostly upset that we had to end our play time early to listen to things we had no interest in, but at the same time, the room was cool and we got to feel 'special' having been chosen  to..well..learn how to say the Rosary. I remember learning specifically about the Seven Deadly Sins....I suppose this is where I got the notion that sins had an hierarchy; for if these seven were singled out, they had to be worse than bad..right?

Gluttony was one of them...in Jamaica,we just say....cravenYou eat too much...yuh too craven. It is a sin too eat too much, to want too much, too crave too much- of anything! It's funny though because so many of life's most precious moments have food at the center of them; I can't think of one place that we go to that doesn't have food. It is hard to navigate around food. Alcoholics can avoid bars, and can empty their homes of liquor but you would be hard pressed to avoid food- unless you want to go in the other direction entirely-anorexia!

I haven't started that 40 by 40 thing yet.
The promises I make to myself are the easiest to break.

I was sure I was ready, I put it out in cyberspace ready,but so was the enemy but delay masquerades as denial- I know it all too well. I refuse to be tricked yet again. So it was interesting that I glanced at an article talking about how the enemy can use food against us, how he can use the pleasures of our taste buds, the very makeup of our senses to work against us and trap us in layers of obesity and that deadly sin....gluttony. Yes, it's not just that you lack self control and that will- it is that you are fighting a battle, a war, that seeks to shorten your very existence through lifestyle diseases.

I watched in horror some time last year a program on TLC called 'My 600 lb life'. I watched with eyes and mouth wide open. I was in disbelief. The persons on the show were wading in a sea of defeat, as obesity had over taken their lives. Is it their fault? Do people put a gun to their head and make them eat unhealthily? The answers to those questions will be different depending on which side of the scale you weigh up on. I understood their defeat and their pain.  I understood trying to come back from a place where you think you are so far gone that it makes no sense. I understood an enemy that says...change is not possible..for you. You. will. die.here.

Ephesians 6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of  the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

I haven't started that 40 by 40 thing yet
The promises I make to myself are easiest to break..on my own

On a Friday night, I'd much rather be unwinding from a hard week, and watching some TV, but I write, I made a promise to God. If it were just for me, well...yeah..I'd be watching TV. Promises to God are easier to keep. I feel like the stakes are higher. Last year, I also did something else...I went 21 days..without food. I only drank coconut water, water and apple juice. It wasn't a hunger strike. I fasted. I prayed. It wasn't about food but my attitude towards food changed. I realized that we give so much importance to food. It's as if we are addicted to food. A kind of a Lusting if you will. LUST - another of the seven deadly sins.

On my fasting journey, it became all too clear that all things are indeed possible- through Christ who strengthens me. I realized that we do 'choose' what we put in our bodies, but I also came to know that anything that is a stronghold in our lives, anything that we struggle with in our lives NEED the power of Christ to be defeated. That includes food. It isn't just will power. It isn't just being craven. And this isn't a cop out!

I haven't started that 40 by 40 thing...but I am going to...
The promises I make to myself are easiest to break...because I don't see me like Jesus does.

There are a few things not mentioned specifically in the Bible, food, is not one of them. It's mentioned, a lot. In fact, I started thinking about that very first 'fruit'. That forbidden fruit that we were not to eat lest we surely die, and while many say it was not a literal fruit, but a metaphor, either way..food was used and I think that is important somehow. God doesn't deal in coincidences, he's much too methodical for that. Satan, beguiles the woman to 'eat the fruit' and we have been suffering for it ever since. So he beguiles us to 'eat' as much and as often as we like, for we shall not surely die...at first. Eventually though, all that freedom starts to take a toll on our physical bodies and we just might 'die' literally because of it. I also don't think there would be so many chapters dedicated to the types of food that are good for us to eat, if the God that created us, who knows just how our systems work didn't deem it important. He knew what was good for us to eat. He knew. No, I am not an Adventist, and I am not plugging their message or practice of eating. I am just thinking there is merit in the pages of Leviticus. I am also aware of the debate that New Testament writings offer, I will not debate that, the truth is simple, if we eat more from plants and less of what is made in plants, we will be healthier and come up hopefully a lot less on the scale.

I haven't started that 40 by 40 thing, but I will.
The promises I make to myself should be kept, because I am a temple. I house precious cargo.

I'm glad Easter is early this year. I'm glad 40 days of Lent starts in February. I'm glad 40 by 40 was put out there and I'm even more excited that 40's are all in a row. I'm going to do a 40 day fast for Lent.

I'm not making any promises...but I want to Chronicle my 40 days on my journey to 40. I invite you to join me. Journeys are always better with friends.

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  1. Thank you for sharing this with us at Sitting Among Friends. For God nothing is impossible. I am glad you shared your hearts desires. Look forward to seeing your journey.

    1. Scary thought, but yes, I am glad you are coming along for the journey

  2. Tanya--I'm an educator also (retired, now substituting in Elementary School). I appreciate your candidness. I also started the year with a weight loss and exercise goal--lose 15 pounds and many inches...so I'll be joining our Senior Citizen gym here in our fair city.(I'm a grandma, I qualify). May we spur one another on to good deeds!

    1. Jody, that would be great, I pray we both succeed at this goal